~RELFEXIVE STATEMENT~

  

   I have been involved in dance off and on throughout my entire life. Since I was little I partook in ballet, jazz, and tap dance. It was not until I visited the Renaissance Festival as a junior in high school that I became familiar with cabaret belly dance and saw my first performance. I became fascinated with the moves and took classes, even performed in a dance troupe in the Twin Cities at a restaurant, club, bar, and park. College began and I moved away, thus quitting dance for a couple years to pursue my academic life. Finally, in my junior year at UMD, I got up the motivation to get back into it. I enrolled at Eman's Belly Dance and Fitness Studio in Duluth and have been relentlessly involved for the last five months. It was not until I started dancing again that I realized how much I had missed the activity and have since made it a priority in my daily life with the possibility of having some sort of future in performing beyond a hobby or class.

               My goal to have made the familiar strange, and look at belly dance as if it were the first time from an outsider's point of view has been very difficult as I am intimately involved with the subject matter and am biased with my outlook based on my love for the dance. I have used this, however, to make myself a researcher and interlocutor, or informant. The project is a rather reflexive perspective as I have used my own feelings, reactions, and thoughts as information.

                Instead of totally focusing on book research I have taken lived experiences, including my own, to present a picture of belly dance. By doing so, I have encountered some truths behind beauty and found some answers to Victoria’s Secret’s question: what is sexy? I wanted to conduct research this semester on a subject I found utterly fascinating and would not mind working on. This comprehensive look at belly dance has furthered my own understanding of myself, others, and has contributed to my performance as a dancer. I have come to some self realizations concerning my physical and mental well-being.